the eye of the pearl

Wednesday, 14 January 2009

  • Broken Heart, Motivated Ambition

    This doll was given to me by the man who broke my heart a couple years back. Besides being just big enough to cuddle and hold, it's also a teddybear, which I ABSOLUTELY adore (because I love teddybears and,) because it's from my school. I had to put school on hold... due to illness, hospitalizations, and financial hardships. So this bear reminds me and motivates me to realize my ambitions to graduate someday with my first bachelor's degree. Winning this campaign would be a step towards that dream. BTW... FYI, the bear's name is Peng. =D

Sunday, 01 June 2008

  • Sucking at life...

    Hmmm.  Just got home.  Was so tired and I hate driving sleepy.  It's like the worst thing I could do.  That's the only real downside to living back in Woodstock.  So this weekend was good I guess.  I hate not having my phone work because it makes it impossible to get a hold of ppl and visa versa.  I hate being at home because it makes me so damn lazy. 
    I know I'm smart.  I know that I have what it takes to do what I want.  Am I just making excuses for everything and giving up too easily?  I'm not so sure anymore.  What is the purpose of life?  I'm not so sure anymore.  What is the next step for me?  I'm not so sure anymore.  I'm not so sure about anything anymore. 

    I just know that some things gotta come by.  Something better...  but it's hard and the older I get, the harder reality hits.  The world is not such a kind place sometimes but you got to make the best of situations right?  There's always hope...?  I'm not so old yet, but I'm sure the years will fly by. 

    It's so hard to see myself in the near future.  What will I be doing even 3 months from now?  I just feel so alone right now and it's just really tough.  I hate letting people down.  And lately I feel like I've let everyone down including myself.  It's so hard to feel anything but the numbness that I feel.  What sucks right now, is being let down myself by others.  But that's okay, I'm used to it.  My whole life, ppl have let me down. 

    How did I become this person?  It's just so hard that all I can do tonight is cry myself to sleep.  I don't deserve any of it...  my parent's sacrifices for their sick youngest daughter.  I know it hurts my parents so much, and I've done so many things to disappoint them.  Everyone was depending on me to be the successful one; the one to become somebody, instead, I've become a self-centered nobody, and I've only caused them so much pain.  If I took off, would anybody notice?  Probably not.  I wish I could just take off to somewhere for a while and not have to think about the things I have to deal with. 

Tuesday, 25 September 2007

  • CHOOOOSUK!!!! what???

    A Guide to the Chuseok Ancestral Memorial Service

    The ancestral memorial service is the central event of Chuseok, Korea’s most important holiday. It’s a complex affair, and many Koreans are unsure about the principles for setting out the Chuseok ritual table or the procedure for the service and just follow what others do. Here, the Chosun Ilbo explains the correct procedure in easy-to-follow steps.

    ◆ How to set out the Chuseok ritual table

    Make five rows on the table. In the first row from the folding screen, place songpyon, goblets, spoons and chopsticks. In the second row, place grilled and seasoned meat or fish (jeok) and pan-fried dishes (jeon). In the third row, put soup, in the fourth row, slices of dried meat or fish and seasoned vegetables and in the fifth row, fruit in odd numbers. The principles may vary from region to region or from family to family, but the following seven principles are common. Remember, however, the most important thing is sincerity in preparing the dishes.

    Assuming that the ancestral tablet is the north: △ Red fruit should be put in the east and white fruit in the west. △ Place jujube, chestnuts, pears and persimmons in that order from the left. You can change the order of pears and persimmons. △ Put beef jerky on the left, and shikhye (an authentic Korean drink made from fermented rice) on the right. △ Place kimchi in the east and seasoned and steamed greens in the west. △ Place meat in the west and fish in the east. △ Let the fish face east with its tail in the west. △ Put rice in the west and soup in the east.


    ◆ Some baffling traditions explained

    Cut off the top and the bottom of fruit. An official from the liturgical committee at the SungKyunkwan University explains, "The basic principle is to peel the fruit, but after peeling the fruits, the colors change, so it is recommended to cut off only some parts." Cutting off the top and bottom also makes it easier to pile them up. Soy sauce should be served on the table in case the ancestors feel dishes are insufficiently seasoned.

    No kalchi (hairtail), samchi (a kind of mackerel) or kongchi (saury) should be served on the table. In Korea, fish, whose names end with "chi" are considered negative, and they can also smell bad. Nor should peaches appear on the table, since Korean spirits don't like peach trees. Spicy seasonings such as powdered red pepper, garlic and green onions should not be included in the dishes for the Chuseok ritual table. But an official from the National Folk Museum of Korea adds, "The ancestral memorial service aims to honor our ancestors, so it is permissible to put dishes that they enjoyed in their life on the table."

    ◆ The ceremony

    1. Place the paper ancestral tablet on the altar and fumigate the altar with incense. The head of the family, who leads the service, pours liquor into the goblet three times, and bows twice. 2. Everyone bows twice. 3. Pour liquor for each ancestor and put chopsticks over the songpyon. 4. All should leave the room for a while or lie on their faces after shielding the table by setting up a folding screen in order for the souls of ancestors to eat the food. 5. Remove chopsticks. After everyone bows again, the service is over. 6. Burn the ancestral tablet. Then everyone may eat and praise the ancestors' virtues.

    (englishnews@chosun.com )



    Maybe this will come in handy some day.... if I ever celebrate this.

Friday, 14 September 2007

  • Dump people never cease to amuse me

    This is so sad....

    Man Dies Fleeing Drunk-Driving Checkpoint
    A man in his 40s died Tuesday night after he jumped into a river trying to escape a drunk-driving crackdown. The 46-year-old man, who was identified only as Kang, was driving around midnight on the riverside road in Gyeongju, where police had set up a checkpoint for drunk drivers. Kang stopped his car about 100 m short of the checkpoint, ran away and jumped into the nearby Hyeongsan river. He was found dead the next morning. A police officer said, “Kang drove backward about 10 m and jumped into the river without even turning off the engine.”

    Police and emergency rescue teams searched for Kang until 2:30 a.m., and finally found the dead body downstream the next morning. Police said Kang was driving without a license since he had been caught for drunk driving three times between 2002 and 2006 and his license was revoked.

    (englishnews@chosun.com )



    LUNCH BREAK.... !

    You wouldn't believe the types of research and work I have to do!

    • Wow... How many people get to dip their hands in with the NMFTA, the FMCSA, the UIIA, at my age
                As, complicated as all these laws, regulations, memberships, and requirements are, they can be a pain the butt!
    • Or even the busy work, like booking reservations at hotels... which by the way I"D LIKE TO BLOG a COMPLAINT about DOUBLETREE HOTELS. 
    •             They use a central reservation system for all their hotels in the United States.  And... what I got from working with them.  They're great people!  Friendly and nice.... BUT.THEY'RE complete idiots.  How hard is it to get a reservation right?

    I had to call them like 4 different times, until finally, they had to do the booking themselves at the actual DoubleTree location that we were booking at.  Luckily, she was great and took care of things.

    • On top of this, I'm getting ready for my business trip, revising my S.O.P (Standard Operating Procedures), handling my shipments, getting quotes, switching our phone service carrier, and being repsonsible for lunch today.  FuN. 

    • Last night I was at work til 8pm!!!!  That's ridiculous.  I went home so tired, I just passed out round ten o'clock.  Didn't even make it to opening my paint kit to do my homework.
    • The UPSIDE... today is FRIDAY and PAYDAY!!!!!
    • Back to my tedious research and work.  Don't get me wrong.. I love it cuz it's all so interesting to me and I love learning.




Friday, 07 September 2007

  • GREAT NEWSSSSS!!!

    Guess who gets to go to New York and PA?

    MmmmmmEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

    I get to tag along the business trip for one of my projects as the sole handler of their accounts.
    I have to meet the customers, give them my SOP, ride on an airplane (which I haven't done since I moved to the US), eat yummy food, and who knows maybe I'll have time to meet up with a few friends? 

    I've ALWAYS wanted to visit NY and now I will.  Too bad I only stay for the meeting and have to come back the same night. 

    Oh, well, how exciting.



    I love our generation... I'm glad things are changing. 

    What Koreans Really Think About Ethnic Homogeneity


    UN Concern at 'Ethnocentric' Korea
    Foreigners Have a Hard Time in Korea -- Report
    It's About Time Korea Became Colorblind
    Korea is rapidly becoming a multicultural and multiethnic society now the number of foreigners living in the country exceeded 1 million as of Aug. 24 or 2 percent of the registered population (49.13 million). A survey on international marriages by the Ministry of Gender Equality and Family released Wednesday suggests that the growing number of foreign residents has changed the attitude of South Koreans, who in the past took pride in their ethnic homogeneity.

    The latest attitude survey was conducted of 1,000 male and female adults over 19 from across the country. Some 72.6 percent of the respondents said there was no reason to stick to ethnic homogeneity. So did 64.8 percent of those in their 50s or older. Only 26.7 percent of the respondents said, ethnic homogeneity was “a proud legacy that we should hand down to our descendants." The confidence level was 95 percent with a margin of error of 3.1 percentage points.


    Respondents also took quite a different attitude toward international marriages. Those willing to allow their children to marry foreigners if they want (62.4 percent) overwhelmed those who are unwilling (36.2 percent). As many as 93.2 percent of the respondents said they would not mind children of mixed couples making friends with their children. Those in the age group between 19 and 29, women, those with experience overseas and college students showed the most positive response to international marriages, and the younger generation on the whole is more interested in making foreign friends.

    Shin Hye-won (22), a college student, said, "I'm envious of friends who have foreign friends, because they look smart and sophisticated when they mix with foreigners. I saw many Korean students in relationships with foreigners, when I was abroad as an exchange student." Hwang Sun-mi (28), who works for an advertising agency, said she goes to barbecue parties in Itaewon once a month to make foreign friends. “We just talk in English and build a human network,” she said. “I can learn a new culture from them."

    Koreans have also become more tolerant of international marriages, with some 79.4 percent of respondents "friendly" toward such families. That was a surge from 48.7 percent in a similar survey conducted by the Policy Coordination Office only last November.

    Won Young-sung (31), a businessman who married a Japanese woman five years ago, said, "Until recently, many people asked me if we were members of a certain religious group or if we had a special reason for our international marriage. But I hear that Koreans with Japanese spouses who've married recently are almost never asked such questions." However, there still exists invisible discrimination against people based on the color of their skin and children of diverse cultrual background.

    Prof. Hahm In-hee of Ewha Womans University said, "It seems people's attitude is rapidly changing due to the younger generation's curiosity about, and their tolerance of, different cultures and the rapid increase of foreign residents in the country." But Prof. Kim Ho-ki of Yonsei University said it remains to be seen whether respondents' favorable response to international marriages is borne out by their actions, given that many questions in the survey's questionnaire began with “Do you think it’s desirable...?" In other words, some respondent may only be paying lip service to the idea of multiculturalism.

    (englishnews@chosun.com )





Thursday, 06 September 2007

  • DAMN~~~~!!! hOTTnESs

    Damn all the new famous Koreans... even rocket scientists are HOTTTTT!

    Tell me Ko San is NOT hot.

    ...& I still won't believe you.


    Ko San Chosen as First Korean Astronaut

    The first Korean astronaut who will go on a space trip on a Russian Soyuz spacecraft in April next year has been chosen. The Ministry of Science and Technology on Wednesday morning said Ko San (30) was selected over fellow finalist Yi So-yeon (28) at a meeting of the seven-member selection committee that includes Korea Aerospace Research Institute President Paik Hong-yul. Ko will travel into space on a Soyuz spacecraft from the Baikonur Space Center in Kazakhstan in April next year. He will stay at the International Space Station for seven or eight days performing various tasks including scientific experiments.

    At the Wednesday meeting, the Science and Technology Ministry said both candidates Ko and Yi were qualified to fulfill space science duties but Ko scored higher and performed better during a training program in Russia and during a space science experiment training program in Korea. Ko will continue training programs in a team with two Russian cosmonauts until March next year. As the backup in case Ko should be unable to board the spacecraft, Yi will undergo the same training separately.

    The two candidates were given their certificates by Korean Ambassador to Russia Lee Kyu-hyung at the Korean Embassy in Moscow on Wednesday. At the ceremony, Ko said, "I'm very happy at this moment. I'll do my best until the moment I take the first step into the space as a citizen of the Republic of Korea." Ko has a B.S. in mathematics and an M.S. in cognitive science from Seoul National University. He was a researcher at the Samsung Advanced Institute of Technology before becoming one of 36,206 applicants to be the first Korean in space.

    (englishnews@chosun.com )





    k.. back to work.

Wednesday, 05 September 2007

  • 참 많이도 배운다.... Talking is learning.

    I was talking with Pyoungsoo 오빠 about a lot of different stuff, even history, politics, and current culture news.

    This happened to be one of the topics we discussed and HERE IT IS in the Chosun Ilbo!!!!



    U.S. Textbooks Add 'East Sea'
    Three major U.S. publishers are now using the name "East Sea" in their geography textbooks.

    According to the Academy of Korean Studies on Monday, publishers McDougal Littell and Glenco/McGraw-Hill revised Korea-related content in their geography textbooks for middle school students.

    U.S. publisher McDougal Littell changed the name of the body of water between Korea and Japan from 'Sea of Japan' (left) to 'Sea of Japan (East Sea)' in its 2008 geography textbooks. /Courtesy of the Academy of Korean Studies

    The publishers changed the name of the body of water between Korea and Japan from "Sea of Japan" to "Sea of Japan (East Sea)." The new textbooks will be distributed this semester.

    The two companies are among the leading U.S. textbook publishers, along with Prentice Hall, the country's largest.

    Last March, Prentice Hall revised a history textbook from "Sea of Japan" to "East Sea (Sea of Japan)."

    The Center for Information on Korean Culture of the Academy of Korean Studies said, "The changes are attributable to our project to identify true Korean territory and history to foreigners, such as providing explanations about Korean territory to foreign textbook editors."

    (englishnews@chosun.com )



    Well, I'm at work and I better get to my work before I fall behind.

    One more great piece of news!  I START SCHOOL at Harrington College of Design this Saturday!!!!!!!!!

    I'm on my way to becoming the best commercial interior designer!  SwEEET. 

    I can do this!!!  My full-time Job (Mon-Fri 9am-5pm or later), Saturday classes (8:30am-5pm downtown Chicago), teaching 7th grade Sunday school students on Sunday, and finding some downtime (HAVE NO CLUE WHEN!)

    I'm almost 22 and it's time to just go for it!  Yipeee!

Tuesday, 04 September 2007

  • Damn Koreans ahahahahah!

    I sure wouldn't want to work in Korea.  By all the things I've heard from other people...

    Amongst other things, this article touches base on one of the issues of the working environment in Korea...



    Koreans Work Longest Hours in the World

    Korean workers put in the longest hours in the world yet their productivity remains just 68 percent of that of U.S. workers, the International Labor Organization said on Monday.

    That means it takes a Korean worker an hour and a half to do what an American needs just one hour to do.

    According to the ILO's "Key Indicators of the Labor Market" report, the average Korean worker toils 2,305 hours per year. That's the most of 54 surveyed countries.

    Six Asian nations have annual work hours per person of greater than 2,200 hours -- Korea, Bangladesh, Sri Lanka, Hong Kong, Malaysia and Thailand.

    However, the report said Korea's annual work hours are shrinking at the fastest pace in the world. The largest decrease in annual labor hours was found in Korea, followed by Ireland, Japan, France and Spain.

    Meanwhile, the productivity gap between the U.S. and Korea is still wide, though it has been closing steadily.

    The ILO said Korean productivity, which is the country's GDP divided by the number of people employed, increased from 28 percent of that of American workers in 1980 to 68 percent in 2005.

    The annual average productivity growth rate in Korea was 4.7 percent, the third fastest of 122 countries, following Bosnia and Herzegovina with 7.8 percent and China with 5.7 percent.

    When it comes to productivity, the U.S. ranked first. U.S. workers produced US$63,885 of wealth per person in 2006, followed by Ireland with $55,986, Luxembourg with $55,641, Belgium with $55,235 and France with $54,609.

    However, Americans work longer hours than workers in other advanced nations. When productivity is measured by wealth produced per hour, Norway ranked first with $37.99. Also on the list were the U.S. with $35.63 and France with $35.08.

    (englishnews@chosun.com )



Friday, 24 August 2007

  • Thank-You Message From Iraqi Girl


    Wow, I didn't even think that Korean soldiers would be stationed in Iraq for some reason.

    In the letter, Pheam, an elementary school girl from the northern city of Irbil, expresses her gratitude to the soldiers of the Zaytun Unit for painting a mural and widening the roads of her village. The video was played at a farewell ceremony for the Zaytun Unit where it deeply moved the Korean soldiers. On Aug 16. the video was posted to Cyworld, a leading Korean social-networking website, where it attracted more than 200,000 viewers in just three days. More than 3,000 people left comments about it on the website. Now the video has spread abroad via YouTube, the world's largest video sharing website, and is causing a stir among netizens around the world. (englishnews@chosun.com )

    How in the world is she speaking Korean?  Damn... makes her seem like she has better Korean than me!!!!!Ugh!  It's so hard to write business emails in Korean.  Someone help!!!

Monday, 20 August 2007

  • HMMMM Damn Koreans... LOL

    Half of Korean Office Workers Labeled 'Speedaholics'

    One out of two Korean office workers in a survey considered themselves so-called "speedaholics" who are constantly under pressure to get things done quickly.

    When recruiting agency Saramin asked 1,737 workers if they see themselves as speedaholics, more than half or 55.8%, said they are.

    When asked why, the majority at 36.6 percent said they are always short on time. Some 30.2 percent said they can't stand doing things slowly, and 13.6 percent said they get nervous when they do things too slowly.

    The majority at 27 percent pointed to an excessive workload as the number one reason for becoming a speedaholic. Other culprits were fierce competition (22.6 percent), and personal traits (21.3 percent).

    Sixty-three percent of the respondents considered being a speedaholic a negative, with most (77.1 percent) saying it generates excessive stress.

    The remaining 633 saw being a speedaholic as a positive attribute, with 33.8 percent saying it helps them better manage their time.

    (englishnews@chosun.com )

    Source:  http://english.chosun.com/w21data/html/news/200708/200708200018.html


    I'm glad I don't work in Korea.


    Sooo..... what did I learn from my EIGHT-HOUR TRAFFIC SCHOOL Class this past Saturday?
    YEP!  8 HOURS!  8am - 5pm.  With periodic 20 min breaks, an hour lunch, and a whole lot of just talking about nothing.

    That they changed some laws?  What do I remember?  What did I learn?
    • You no longer can flash your lights if someone has their high-beam on coming the opposite way.  It's ILLEGAL.
    • You can drive while on a cell phone in McHenry County if you're 18 or older.  STUPID!  But that doesn't matter because I'm 21.
    • The Village of BULL VALLEY Police have NO LIVES!!!! They give you tickets for going 2 mph over the speed limit ... of what?  LIKE 40mph and gave a ticket for 42mph. 
    • In the town of Richmond or somewhere... there's a road where they sit and wait to catch you apparently.
    • More towns are starting to give tickets for not stopping at stop signs or traffic lights.
    • More towns are getting cameras and speed radars.
    • You're supposed to add a second of stopping time for every additional hazard to the 3sec standard driving distance... BULL CRAP...  Common sense people.  You should just know how long it takes you to stop according to the weather.
    • Children MUST BY LAW be seated in Child Safety Seats til they weigh 80 lbs!!!!  What if you're an adult at 80 lbs?  gross... that's disgustingly skinny.  I don't ever remember being in one of these... I know for a fact I never was.  Also children under the age of 10 must be seated in the rear... sucks for them... I remember always sitting up front with my mommy.
    • People are stupid... come on... I'd hate to be the kid whose mom thinks that holding them will be safer than a child safety seat or proper restraining equipment. 
    • People are stupid for drinking and driving...  omgsh... statistics say... like ONE in THREE will be involved in an alcohol-related accident.  Scary... I think it's true, most of the people I know have been hit by dumb people like this.
    • You can be not capable of driving and still be legal under the legal .08
    • There was a guy in the class who prolly wasted like MORE than $600,000 dollars on tickets, multiple DUIs, driving on suspended license, driving on revoked license, lawyers, court fees, and hospital bills.  He had to file for bankruptcy... He's ONLY 23 now!!!!!  damn.. do they ever learn?  He doesn't sound like he has.
    • If I hadn't fallen asleep at the wheel, I would never have rear-ended that lady; I wouldn't have wasted $300.00; I wouldn't have wasted 8 hours of precious sleeping-in-on-a-Saturday-time; and I wouldn't have to worry about my insurance.
    • The worst part... I have YET TO TAKE MY 4 HOUR TRAFFIC SCHOOL CLASS in Rolling Meadows!  Ewww.. not again!  I can ace this course in my sleep next time.



    I went bowling tonight with co-workers and people from Hyundai.  hahaha... I haven't laughed this much in a very very long time... so much that my sides started aching. 
    OMGSH!  I'm so upset.. my first warm-up game was aite.. my second game was stellar.. and my third game was awful in my mind.  We bet on dinner and soju and norebang for next time.  The second game was great and it was supposed to count... IONO Y WE HAD TO REPLAY to WIN... cuz we really really lost.  Boo.
    It was fun though, and I met a lot more people.  I think I'll go bowling again next time or with church people.  I kinda miss it.  Ok... now I'm exhausted. 

    I was reading up on customs bonds... hmmm.... I need to study more.  I miss studying.  NOT.  I study plenty at work.

    HOW I FEEL... 
    ... LIKE DDONG.

    I feel awful for so many different reasons...
    • Mad, angry, scared, terrified, depressed, anxious, stressed, restless, sad, worried, discouraged, hopeless, lonely, upset, confused, disillusioned, disappointed, tired, cranky...
    • On the up-side... confused, excited, tired, worried, discouraged, lonely, and happy?  if that's possible.
    I wish I could hide away from the world for a good 3 months.  Like literally crawl up like a ball and tuck myself away to hibernate.  I remember doing that at school for a good 1 to 2 weeks my freshmen year.

    I don't know what it is but suddenly I have all these emotions... I'm pretty sensitive, but this emotional?  I wish I could cry, because of being emotional but at the same time I'm so still and so emotionless.

    Lord help me. 

    THE END.

    nitey nite time. 
    GOOD NIGHT WORLD.

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Marques Houston - Walk Away


"Walk Away"

[Talking]
Your truly beautiful you know
Just thought I'll do a little something
To let you know
Check it out

[Verse 1]
I can truly say
Its not everyday
Someone makes me feel this way
Just like a star shooting past the moon
It felt like a holiday
I wanna take you away
To another place
Where the love just over flows babe
You were like my rain that needed to fall
And the flowers would not grow

[Chorus]
Has anybody ever told you
That your eyes shine like pearls
Has anybody ever told you
That your one special girl
Has anybody ever showed you
That love is here to stay
cuz you stole my heart on this very day
And I can't let you walk away

[Verse 2]
You took me by surprise
And lit up my eyes
Like a child with a brand new toy
I never had so much inspiration
Now my songs are filled with joy
I can feel my soul
And feel my heart beating
for the very first time
No I'm not your man
But I'm making plans
Like your already mine

[Chorus]
Has anybody ever told you
That your eyes shine like pearls
Has anybody ever told you
That your one special girl
Has anybody ever showed you
That my love is here to stay
And you stole my heart on this very day
And I can't let you walk away

[Bridge]
Walk away, can't you let you walk away from me
Gotta keep you and there's is something
I want to tell you
Tell you in your ear, baby isn't it clear that I want you

[Chorus]
Has anybody ever told you
That your eyes shine like pearls
Has anybody ever told you
That your one special girl
Has anybody ever showed you
That my love is here to stay
And you stole my heart on this very day
And I can't let you walk away